Reflection : Friendship

I have a gang of buddies. The five of us were in the same class back in high school, and we share similar interests and hobbies. We love handicrafts,we love handmade stuff, we love books, we love rock musics, we are all crazy over beautiful and cute stationaries from Taiwan and Japan, we always spend most of our pocket money in buying beautiful washi tapes and beautiful note books, etc, rather than buying clothes and shoes like the other girls do. We had many great times together in high school, although we were all very busy in our clubs and societies (because we all held important positions), but we still spent a lot of time together. We visited zakka store and stationary store during weekends, we shared 3 packs of Bee Hun Tom yam together, we went to the concerts of our favorite band together and screamed and jumped. I am really glad that wedid all the craziest thing we could ever do, together. 

After we graduated from high school, and that's when things started to change. 3 of us entered Taylor's College Subang Jaya for SAM and CAL, and the another two enrolled themselves in Taylor's University Foundation in Nature Buidling and Environment course. We couldn't make to meet up regularly although we had promised each other to at least meet up once a week. When the heavy and hectic schedule in college kicked in, we couldn't spare any time for each other, we instead spent more time with our new friends, and that was the main conflict that almost crashed our friendship. 

Okay, it was me who had caused so much problems.I found it really hard to make new friends in college. I didn't know the reason, but I found it super hard to step out from my comfort zone. I tended to stick to my old high school friends. In the first few weeks of college, it was alright, but not more until the classes officially started. Everyone seemed like they have managed to blend into their new environment and mix with the people that but I still remained isolated from community. I felt lonely and helpless. I even regretted with my own college choices. 

The immaturity thinking of mine made me blame everything on the high school friends. I blamed them for not concerning of my feelings, for not helping me out of the mist. When they called for gathering, I refused to attend; when we met each other in the campus, I pretended that I didn't see them and ignored their smile on their face. Things were getting worse, and then even worse. 

One night, they came over to my hostel. We had a talk. They apologized and I felt sorry. I cried and I suddenly realized how had things gone wrong. It's all about growing up and moving on. After leaving high school, everything is surely going to change. We were already trying hard to secure our bond and we actually managed to organize gathering every months, and we truly missed each other a lot, although we are already leading a brand new life at different places. However, it doesn't mean that we can always stay in the past and never want to move forward. Nothing is gonna last forever, what we could do is to try our best to make the memories last long, and do not ever feel miserable when things gradually fades away in the future. The best way to maintain a bond between each other is to always be considerate, and always put yourselves in the shoes of each other.